Happy New Year’s Eve
Now, where can I get a refund for this year?
This year is probably the worst one in my 19 years walking the earth. Everything that could go wrong did go wrong. But oh well, evidently as you can see with my life, life ain’t fair. Deal with it. (Well, I’m hoping if I say that enough, I would actually believe it and stop my pity party).
A new low was struck for me a couple of weeks back. It’s me and my parents. Don’t actually feel like thinking about it (those damn tear ducts betray me otherwise). Let’s just say that my dislike of my father turned into venomous hate. My entire family (except maybe my older brother and his girlfriend) is making my life - oh, I can’t even think of a proper adjective!
My life seems to be going nowhere and my hopes and dreams seem to be rotting like a carcass under the Malaysian sun. Life thus far have not given what I want, what I need. I just have to learn to deal with it. Boo hoo, my life is terrible, I’m broke, jobless, no educational prospects, I have same-sex attractions, I’m lonely, boo hoo hoo. I’m stopping my pity party today, it’s ending this year. Many people have it worser off than me. Though many do have it better than me, focus on the negative, Rex, focus on the losers. You’ll feel less like one.