The Perfect Storm
My trials for, apparently, one of the hardest exams in the world starts tomorrow. And the next two months are 6-day weeks (we have a smart Ministry of Education, thank them) with no public holidays. And then a short Deepavali and Eid ul-Fitr holiday just before the inevitable happens - that hard, hard exam begins. Meanwhile, everything else in my life is going to pieces. My parents would be deciding in the next two weeks whether to live as expatriates in some God-forsaken country for two years, for example.
And somehow, I’ve created a very false aura that I’m intelligent to my friends, something that is cracking slowly but surely. Tomorrow’s exam, the one I’m absolutely certain I’m going to fail, needs to be passed so I could go to university for early placement. And they [my teachers, parents, and every bloody person that been through it] say that if you fail the trials, failure for the real thing is almost certain. For the past few weeks, I’ve been constantly under stress, and that’s unlikely to erode over the next three months. All shaping up to be the perfect storm. Oh, yes, I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. But not sure whether I can reach it.
I think I’ll put off the AIDS test to December. So many have cracked in this season in the past, after all.
Exams are of Satan, BTW.
I wished I had this “spirit of exellence” last year. Would have been so much more useful.
Hey there Rex,
HIV tests are also of Satan…
I’d encourage you to get it done as soon as possible, even though I know that it’s easier said than done… And good luck with your test!
Praying for you, man.
Comment by Michael — 12 September, 2005 @ 8:56 pm
Michael: Nah, I’ll do it when my Marginal Propensity to Commit Suicide is closer to zero…
Right now, a HIV test would be akin to the proverbial straw that broke the homo’s back. Doesn’t matter if I’m positive or negative…
Comment by Rex — 14 September, 2005 @ 6:41 pm