I’m thinking…
…castration?
If your hand or your foot gets in the way of God, chop it off and throw it away. You’re better off maimed or lame and alive than the proud owners of two hands and two feet, godless in a furnace of eternal fire. Matthew 18:8 (The Message)
So if your testicles gets in the way of God…? It would be so much easier. Wonder if the local vet would be willing to do it.
Anyone who meets a testing challenge head-on and manages to stick it out is mighty fortunate. For such persons loyally in love with God, the reward is life and more life. James 1:12 (The Message)
Hope that’s a good life, God.
I found your journal through a fellow LiveJournaler who has been in some of the same places you are going through now, as have I.
I strongly suggest that you should not beat yourself up over the way God made you, based on a few Bible verses taken out of context.
I’m sure you aren’t the only one who has considered this as a route to freeing yourself from the conflict between being gay and being Christian. Many years ago I struggled with the same sorts of issues, and eventually came to the conclusion that being gay and being Christian must be reconcilable or God would not have made me the way I am.
I don’t know which Christian tradition you worship in, but I commend to you the works of Brian McNaught on being gay and Catholic — particularly On Being Gay. They helped me a great deal (although having been raised Catholic I can’t say how close they come to your particular faith tradition if it isn’t Catholic).
Hang in there, and know that God doesn’t make junk. God bless you.
Comment by Mike — 31 August, 2005 @ 5:29 am
If you want to jump blogging services, there’s a group of us that have been through what you are going through. You are not alone.
http://www.livejournal.com/community/bearsoffaith/
Comment by niloticbear — 31 August, 2005 @ 6:47 am
Mike: Thanks for the comment, however I’ve already made up my mind; I’m convinced so to speak.
niloticbear: Thanks but no thanks.
Comment by Rex — 31 August, 2005 @ 8:38 am