Why me?
I reread that homosexuality book again. The big question is: why me? All of the issues that may have been behind my homosexuality (early childhood development, family background, temperament and interests, peer pressure, sexual abuse) is none of our, the main victims, fault. 1 Corinthians 10:13, “There hath no temptation taken you but such as is common to man…” - how exactly is this common to men?
I did all the right things as a kid - I look forward to church, I loved praying, I didn’t mind reading the Bible. Then *bang* puberty comes and you’re gay.
Why couldn’t God deal with my issues when I was a young kid? Isn’t it easier to deal with those roots when they are young and haven’t gone deep within? Why didn’t God spare me from this?
Admitably, I should have turned God as soon as I realize this attractions, but what did I know back then? There weren’t exactly tracks titled, “Are you a plump 13-year-old boy that gets excited seeing other boys naked?” I didn’t know what’s wrong with me, or more accurately, didn’t know whether anything was wrong with me. My parents never had the birds and the bees talk with me (this is Asia), so I didn’t exactly know what normal sexual attactions were like.
i`m sorry to hear that. have you try to change to be normal?
Comment by hafudo — 25 August, 2005 @ 6:34 pm
Have you read the rest of my blog?
Uhm.. nevermind.
Comment by Rex — 25 August, 2005 @ 8:46 pm